No Real Luck

I keep neglecting this blog. I think it is the accountability that is killing me.

I have been counting calories for a while now with no real luck. I keep telling myself that one of these days it will just fall off. I did recently start the C25K app (available on ITunes) to add some much needed exercise to my daily regimen. I love the feeling I get after an accomplishment or a good sweaty workout. I have been thinking about taking Tucker out for a real run but it seems that hasn't happened just quite yet. I think I am afraid of him wanting to keep on running even after I need to stop.
For some reason, I do not agree with the Atkins diet. I do not believe that NO CARBS is the holy grail of dieting. I think that there is some merit to eating lighter and more healthy on a daily basis, however; here lately I have been cheating on the weekends. Jay does not help with this battle for he loves to "cheat" on his healthy diet just as much as I do. I have decided that I have got to make some drastic changes to what we are eating at night. I have added water consumption to my daily routine as well. This seems to have improved my skin's condition as well as cleansing my system. I know that it is a good change, but I have to pee constantly!

My co-worker has been training for marathons. I feel jealous. I got to a certain part in the C25K and couldn't push any harder. I have decided to start back at the beginning today. I need to go back to doing 33 minutes, at least, every single day. My "time of the month" is the only period of time that I let more than 2 days pass which was during the end of last week and the weekend. Now that it's over, time to get back to some serious work. I want to devote a little more time to this blog and to getting skinny before I have to show my big, fat, white ass at the pool.
My father is getting married at the end of this month, don't ask, and I need a cute dress to wear. I want to be classy and confident which I can not feel at this point in my life. Desperately, I have been seeking a dress to go and try on online. The fear that is happening in my head around realizing that I can't fit into anything remotely cute is horrible. Also, Jay is wanting to get us back into church. I have maybe 2 pair of pants that will be church appropriate and no skirts/dresses. I guess I need to be on the look out.
All these clothes and I have no body to speak of.
I will just keep on working out and keep on eating right.
Check in with you from now on and keep track of my progress.
I need to purchase a tape measure. Some way to log my measurements. Maybe that way I would see the results.